Take a look beyond the moon

You'll see the stars...

I am going to take my dog for a walk. Maybe, the only creature who wants to follow me is that one...

Total loneliness.

Yes, I know I have chosen that. I wanted to follow my path with any cost and now I’m paying for, but it remains hard and very difficult. I have to look nice, happy and calm.

I must do my every day routine and I do not let anyone to come closer.

I must smile, talking, being gentle even if I have so much anger inside me.

I cannot forget and that is the worst thing. I cannot forget. Therefore, there is not a way to escape.

Yes, I have been mistaken. I know that. I have been unfair. I have been hard. Yes, but I cannot accept that I was the only one. I was waiting an excuse. Just an excuse for all that pain. Nothing… How can I forgive? How can I go on?

Now I know

Now I know

why I cannot write

why I cannot think

why I cannot go forward

because I'm empty

I've understood

the feelings

the lies

the mistakes

of my life.

Now I can see

clean and clear

facts and situations

which led me

in the way I follow

I cannot correct the past

I cannot correct my mistakes

I cannot replace things

I cannot change persons

or their behaviors

I cannot forget

How can I find peace?

How can I ger over?

How can start again?

How can trust people?

My mind is misty

My soul is lost

My heart is achy

My body is tired

I dont want to walk

I dont want to go on

I dont want to wait

I dont want to hope

I give in...